Perhaps it's the wrong time to think about all that's went wrong. And no, I'm not talking about 4AM. I've been pretending to be too indifferent that it might actually be becoming real in me, and that just sucks. I don't know where to look now. It's like getting lost in a forest; no matter where you look, every tree looks the same, what more when your vision is blurred?
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Is it fatigue or are these tears
Sunday, November 4, 2012
A reason for people to talk to you without seeming weird: Birthdays
I've never really placed much importance on my birthdays since young. Being a total nerd in primary school I never had friends surprising me or anything, nor did I have any birthday parties. I remember being so envious of other people that there was this year I begged my mom to buy me a cake -- but for some reason I felt so embarrassed when my family sang a birthday song for me. I guess that was the start.
In secondary school my birthdays always clashed with exams: people had no time to study, what more celebrate birthdays? Well, there were people who did major nice stuff for me though, so I'm really thankful, but I was so depressed myself over how my birthday just had to clash with exams that I couldn't really appreciate it. Oh well. In 2009 my birthday was the O' Levels Geography paper, and in 2011 I was intensely studying for A's :(
This year, I found myself expecting more, perhaps because since entering uni, I've realized just how important friends really are. And so it kinda hurt, really, when a while had already passed after 12MN before I checked my phone and there were no messages from my closest friends. I ignored it though, and slowly they started coming (thank God). Met two of these people who didn't wish me for DIY steamboat (which was yummy and way-too-much heheh) and they had a surprise up for me! Kinda guessed but I'm still damn grateful for it! Thanks Xuan and Sher!! (heartz) ^^~ They decorated a cake from The Icing Room with a few inside jokes tsk (: And then we played our usual singing games and watched a horror movie lmao. It is my kind of ideal birthday though! Just a whole day slacking with friends, and nothing else. (:
When I reached home later on, two more people I were waiting for wished me at 1159PM, tsk... I was getting sad ok....... But well, faith restored! I gotta mention too that unexpected people wished me too, and I'm touched I would say. I think I'm starting to appreciate my birthday now. Yeah, like finally, after 18 years.
Okbye sorry if I sound really wishywashy or disjointed, I'm nodding off.... Here's my first blogpost as a 19-year old. Goodbye.
In secondary school my birthdays always clashed with exams: people had no time to study, what more celebrate birthdays? Well, there were people who did major nice stuff for me though, so I'm really thankful, but I was so depressed myself over how my birthday just had to clash with exams that I couldn't really appreciate it. Oh well. In 2009 my birthday was the O' Levels Geography paper, and in 2011 I was intensely studying for A's :(
This year, I found myself expecting more, perhaps because since entering uni, I've realized just how important friends really are. And so it kinda hurt, really, when a while had already passed after 12MN before I checked my phone and there were no messages from my closest friends. I ignored it though, and slowly they started coming (thank God). Met two of these people who didn't wish me for DIY steamboat (which was yummy and way-too-much heheh) and they had a surprise up for me! Kinda guessed but I'm still damn grateful for it! Thanks Xuan and Sher!! (heartz) ^^~ They decorated a cake from The Icing Room with a few inside jokes tsk (: And then we played our usual singing games and watched a horror movie lmao. It is my kind of ideal birthday though! Just a whole day slacking with friends, and nothing else. (:
When I reached home later on, two more people I were waiting for wished me at 1159PM, tsk... I was getting sad ok....... But well, faith restored! I gotta mention too that unexpected people wished me too, and I'm touched I would say. I think I'm starting to appreciate my birthday now. Yeah, like finally, after 18 years.
Okbye sorry if I sound really wishywashy or disjointed, I'm nodding off.... Here's my first blogpost as a 19-year old. Goodbye.
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