Social disease

Let's stop spreading our pessimism, stop complaining, stop quoting sad shit. Why don't we all think positive, smile more, and despite what may bring us down, remember that when you're down, when you feel like you've hit rock bottom, the only thing left to do is to go back up. Difficult as it is, it happens.

It's too damn demoralizing when I visit Twitter lol.

I'm no psychic

"One step forward, two steps back" is so cliche because it's so true and applicable. It's my mindset, and as much as I try to kick it, it kicks right back in.

Let me be? Let me be.

Slow and steady

It's been a while since I've posted! Been occupied, lol. Anyway, I'm still reading that self-improvement book, and I'm trying to apply it to my life. I'm also trying to be more open, bit by bit. Right now what I need to figure out though, is what I really want. What is it that I crave and makes me happy and is good for me? What is good for me, and, am I even good for anybody? I'm not saying I'm not, but these are doubts I'm always getting which really hamper me, and I need to figure them out. I guess in a sense, the reason why I like doing socially-beneficial stuff is 'cause I wanna convince myself that I'm someone who makes things better. Sigh, my superego /cues psychology geekiness/ is such a pain in the ass.

To elaborate on this, Sigmund Freud has a theory on the human psyche. There's the id, which is basically your innate desires, your superego, which is your ideals and morals, and lastly the ego, which serves to regulate the two so that you don't die of guilt nor go around raping people lol. Pardon me if I remembered anything wrongly hahhaha. For me, I think my id and superego are both really strong. That's why sometimes my ego goes on overdrive and all these doubts and confusion starts to kick in, making me wonder who I really am. Sounds like an identity crisis? Hahaha, perhaps. But awareness of a problem is a major key in reaching the solution, so I believe I'm probably nearing there. :)