Thorn

Every now and then a bitter part of me surfaces. It's hard to let things go, so I overcome that by forgetting them instead. Unfortunately triggers come up occasionally and they remind me of all the bad feelings I had before.

I've come to truly accept that many people are liars. Well yeah, not all, but enough to hurt. It's still such a dilemma whether I should choose to trust and risk being hurt, or hide away safely behind walls. I used to lie a lot to protect myself in the past. But I never meant to hurt anyone in that process. Growing up, I even learnt a little of how it feels like to make some worthy sacrifices for the benefit of others. White lies... I think I can honestly say that they're all I've made after I grew up and wisened up. Sadly, the lies I've seen from others of late have been more of dark grey. Protecting themselves at the expense of someone else. Fuck man, I am such a coward for keeping it all in. But confrontations are just not for me since all I'd do is cry and be swayed with enough persuasion. Soft hearts need walls. I guess I'll also need to accept that I'll never be one to bare my heart like one of those straightforward people out there. And to all those who have lied, I hope you're happy with your damn noble decision.