Ignorant

Some pursuits are meaningless, but I don't know which yet. Or maybe I should be looking out for those which are meaningful, I dunno. I really don't know much about anything at all. 

Coming to life

I'm always reading multiple books at once, guess I'm fickle like that. An author I wanna talk about is Mitch Albom though, who always slips from my mind until I unknowingly make references to his books. His stories have never failed to enchant me and make me cry. I've read The Five People You Meet in Heaven (my personal fave and the first book I read by him), Tuesdays with Morrie, Have a Little Faith, For One More Day, and now I'm reading The First Phone Call from Heaven. These books are so easy to digest -- comprehension wise -- but profound, enlightening, inspiring and heartwarming encompassed in each of them. Now that it's Christmas season, talking about this seems apt, as all these stories revolve around faith, hope and love.

I like this quote from The First Phone Call from Heaven: "Joy and sorrow share the water." It strikes me as depicting how different emotions share a space, how they co-exist, how our tears could mean either or both. We, I, need to learn to embrace our emotions. I usually tell myself to keep them on a leash, but isn't it against our nature to tame our emotions? Why shouldn't I feel them at full force? Perhaps, after that, I'd be able to understand them better and truly gain control over my feelings. I guess this could be something I can try working on in the coming year. Test it out, see how it goes. 

Meanwhile, Merry Christmas everyone! Have a satisfying end to this year, and may God bless each and every one of us :)

Wanderer at heart

So quickly, a year or six have passed. They say there's two kinds of people in your past -- the ones you've loved and lost, and the ones you've loved and let go. Is it bad that nearly everyone in my past seem to've been let go? It seems to boil down to the kind of person I am inside. Am I a wanderer trying to stay? Should I try to plant my feet, or should I head out to see, hear, feel and learn? People want stability, and I seem to be lacking that. I'll learn slowly I guess, though I think this will always be a part of me. 

Hmm

Sometimes, for no reason at all, I feel a wave of sadness wash over me, starting from my heart, and it spreads through my chest. I really can't explain it -- it doesn't seem to be crippling, nor does it ruin my mood. To some extent, it gives me a sense of peace. I felt it during tuition just now, as I was looking at my tutee do his paper. It took me by surprise, though I didn't show anything. But I felt so aware of my surroundings suddenly. The sunlight, the temperature, the things around me, the feelings my tutee may possibly be feeling. And if I have to be honest, I quite like it. I guess it's because I know I really have no reason to be feeling that way. It helps me appreciate things even more.

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"Family isn't always blood. It's the people in life who want you in theirs; the ones who accept you for who you are. The ones who would do anything to see you smile and who love you no matter what."

Infinitely thankful for the friends in my life. Thank you God for these blessings :))))))