yet another year has gone by, and I'm happy to report that I think most of my negative feelings are under control. for the most part, I feel much more comfortable. comfortable with who I am, both the good and the ugly. negative feelings are still around and they'd probably never go away, but I've finally learnt how to kinda process them healthily instead of burying it all deep inside. it's not always successful but I'll take the wins.
life is pretty good -- I'll always remember having a convo with Shiqi maybe nearly 10 years ago about how drama free our lives were and how we liked that. looking back, I had no idea how much drama I would later get myself into, and how bad the drama in my own head would become. yet, thanks to the drama here and there I've also learnt and grown. still a long way to go, with how irrational and illogical I can be sometimes, but we can never be perfect. I just hope I'll keep getting better at being me, and become a better person all around.
I still get surprised every time I remember I'm already 29 this year. I started blogging more than half my lifetime ago, and though it comes once a year nowadays, I'm pretty thankful for it, to look back at snapshots of my thoughts in the past years, and realizing how far I've come. it wasn't that long ago that I couldn't see myself living in this world for long, but now I can, and I hope I'll continue leaving posts every year until I'm elderly. who knows.
good job on living so far, me! lots of love.
