I think you never knew.

"Just cause I look so cheerful, doesn't necessarily mean I am."

Yeah. How many realize when all the smiles and laughter I'm putting on is just a facade? ): It's painful to watch me do this to myself, yet I can't bring myself to look so unhappy everyday, cause I think my life probably sucks just as much as everybody else's.

While everyone saw the smile on my face, no one could see the pain in my eyes. I'm only human, I need concern too. But if that means outrightly showing everyone that I'm upset, then. I'd rather not. But it hurts.

I feel like I'm pouring out, but not receiving. Okay, I do admit, I receive lots of love, but even with these people who love me no one knows what I really feel deep inside. And I don't know, I really question myself, when I'm willing to give my all to my friends (maybe just the closer ones), how many are going to be willing to return back the same? Give without expecting any return? I'm human, I'm human, I'M JUST AN ORDINARY HUMAN I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO THAT, I'M SORRY. I'm sorry.

I wonder when my breaking point is gonna come. Soon, I think.