Okay, shall type a long post to get whatever is inside of me off my chest. Been wanting to blog the whole week, but promised myself not to use the computer, so I didn't. Right now, I'm forsaking my time for math to blog, and I feel kinda guilty..
Nevermind, an even better reason for me to go straight home after the floorball 3on3 tomorrow.
Today, I did something that I haven't done in a long time. I.. lost control of my emotions. I honestly feel that I can control my emotions very well, esp. disappointment and anger. (well, I find no need to keep happiness/excitement in check) So yeah, today I was kind of ashamed of myself. But despite my mind telling me to stop, no, my heart just can't do otherwise.
Sorry about it, I guess I eventually had to release my pent up frustration, I'm flesh and bone afterall, despite how much I force myself to be a robot most of the time nowadays.
Hmm, I've said it before, and I shall say it again. My blog's the only outlet I have for.. emotional release. And I'm sorry if it bores you, hah.
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By the way, we got back our A'level results yesterday (chinese for us), and.. I'm kind of motivated to work harder for myself. I've sacrificed so much and wasted so much, it's time I put in the last element called discipline, to reap the fruits of labour.
"She finally has all of them in their proper place — which is basically anywhere that’s not in her heart." - after the fall (but before the rise)
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