Society

Okay, typing this post after a horribad day at work. Yeah, horribly bad. Goodness. To be honest it's not that bad from a bystander's point of view, but from my eyes, it was.

Firstly I went to work thinking that my shift today was 3-9PM. I was pretty excited about rushing home to catch today's Gayo Daejun (it's a concert each of the three Korean major channels organize every end of year, on the 29th, 30th and 31st.) but ended up, my shift was 3-11PM. Which meant that I'd miss it. So I thought, okay, nevermind, and I started working. I have this manager who's pretty nice, although people have already badmouthed her to me already but she hasn't personally offended me so I'm not gonna be biased; she took early leave today (AND tomorrow omg) so there's some other branch's manager attached here. Firstly, her operation methods are different, so there were some things she asked me to do which left me baffled. And then she was telling me that she didn't hear me greet (ok, the other manager tells me this too, but wtf I only need to let the customers hear right! Not as if I'm greeting them. Do I need to shout into the customers' faces so they can hear me?! o___o) and being accused wrongly I insisted, "No, I said welcome to the customer!" and IDK what is so cute about me being insistent/rebuttive/whatever but she laughed and she lightly pinched my chin. You know how people hold little kids'/their lover's chins and then go "Awwww"?? Yes she did that. And OHMYGAD it's so gross!!!! I barely even know her, please?!?!?! Seriously if my friends did that I would probably have a minor reaction like waaahgh but for a stranger like today, my impression of the person goes into the drain.

So after that everything was pretty okay, until this group came into the boutique. There were three Chinese: two women one man, and three 20 give-take a little year old Vietnamese/Filipino/Indonesian girls. From what I could hear them converse about, they seemed to be foreign workers and I presume one woman was trying to handle their operations/whatever with the couple. She called me to take their orders and I wrote whatever she pointed to, and she wanted a Litchi-something so I asked, "Litchi Tea Freeze?" and she went "Yayaya," and she said she wanted two lychees and less sweet. And her Seafood Aglio Olio she wanted more spicy. Okay, so these together with the other orders I took, and I went to key them in.

Passing by the barista (who was the manager), I told her about the requests and then she said, "But Litchi Tea Freeze has no lychees", and I was like, really? So I went to ask the lady about it. She gave me a look and she said, the drink I usually have has lychees! She asked me what drink I ordered for her, so I flipped to the Tea Freeze page and showed her. She said, "No, I don't want this. I want Lychee Jazz.". I went back to the counter and I told my manager, and she said, "No, tell her cannot, I blended it already." I went to the woman and told her, and she said, "No I don't want that. I want Lychee Jazz." so I went back to tell the manager, and the manager was pissed off. I reminded her about the less sweet and two lychees, and she replied, "Don't want give.". Lol like ...what? Idk man, just so you know, making a wrong drink is no big deal and we usually just drink it ourselves under the reason of food testing. It's a legit reason; for the waiters/waitresses to know how the drink tastes like so we can better introduce them to the customers. And she looked so pissed? Zzzz and after that I went to serve other customers.

Who knows, suddenly the manager called me and told me the woman said she didn't order a certain drink. It was some Strawberry Mocha Blend I remember. I served it to the woman, and she looked at me angrily and said (in Chinese), "No I didn't order this! How do you take orders? You anyhow write and anyhow give an order to me?" So, I apologized (and you know what the best part is? The General Manager (super high post) was also in the boutique....) and told the manager that she insisted that she didn't order. So alright, I thought that was bad enough.

After a while, all of a sudden the woman comes up to me (who was at the counter) and the manager, and asks where is the soup and pizza. The thing is, she didn't order them from me!!!! Wtf wtf wtf. So I said, "I didn't take any orders for soup and pizza," and she replied (in Chinese again. I shall type it out...) “我明明有order，你们是怎样take orders的？如果她不会你就找会的人，为什么把我的order这样乱乱点！” all in a damn bitchy and accusing tone. What I find funny on afterthought is that my manager is a Filipino so she probably doesn't understand a single shit she's saying. Lmao. So my manager replied her and told her that we would serve the soup and pizza in five minutes. She replied, "I want the soup NOW.", and my manager was like "Okay." and we all went about with our own stuff. I felt so sorry at that point of time that I wanted to cry, because I felt wronged, troublesome, and scared (since the GM was there) all at the same time. I went on with waitressing, and everytime I had to tend to their table (clear plates, serve drinks, refill water etc.) the woman would either roll her eyes at me or scold me some more. Argh.

Finally, when they were settling the bill, the woman nagged at me, “你是怎样？做事人在心不在！以后出来做工时你怎么办？”, so I gave an apologetic smile and said sorry again. I felt miserable.

One good thing was that the GM didn't say anything about it, though I do think she noticed the commotion. All in all, it brought me to reflect and realize that the more people you meet, the more types of people you discover. TBH I feel pretty unexposed to the higher-class people because of my own social standing, and through this job I meet them every day (tcc is a boutique lol, because it's high-class ._.). It has opened my eyes, especially today. I don't hate the woman that much; it was a severe case of miscommunication and all the wrong circumstances happening at the wrong time. But I feel like if I take her advice (aka naggings/scoldings) the objective way, it'll help me. And I should put my ill feelings behind.

Lol. I don't know how well I need to perform to get the Outstanding Staff Award, but I'll try. And when I get it, I'll think back to this day and laugh.

Luxemborg

Okay so, I'm blogging because I'm taking a break from writing LOL. The irony, right? That I'm taking a break from writing by writing....okay, whatever.

Just in case you're thinking what I'm writing, hmm, I don't think you'll ever find out because I'm not gonna disclose it personally, hahaha. The wonders of Internet anonymity /smirks

Alright, so. Random.

I think it's a blessing in disguise that I share a room with my mom and bro. Being the loner I am, if I had a room to myself, I'd probably coop myself up all day and end up being a severe introvert. But instead, now I'm forced (okay, forced is too strong a word...) to interact with my family because I don't have any private space. Which is good. Oh, the more important thing is, it means family time, even if it's half-hearted at times.

Also, I'm gonna work next week! At TCC. Idk which branch I'm posted to yet. Also, with afterthought, I'm finding the pay a bit low.. $6.30/hr. Man, 7hrs/day and 5days/week wouldn't even add up to a four digit salary in a month. Which sucks. So, I googled some other jobs and I sent in my resume to a few tuition centres lmao. I can teach Eng and Chi concurrently, okay! That's something to be demanded ...I hope.

Okay I shall go now, adios!
Abrupt, I know. That's just me. n_n

Entranced

Okay wow, I haven't blogged for almost 3 weeks! Oh well. It's been a period of ups and downs.

For one, A's ended!!! Tbh I didn't feel much from it. Tbvh I didn't work my hardest for these exams. But, as I've told some, this is me and I'm pretty sure nothing would change even if I repeated the year, because it's not something I seek to achieve in. Well, I still feel less burdened of course, though. In exchange for the burden which was lifted, now I feel this need to be productive. To earn money in order to be self-sustainable, to write, to make up for moments I've let go or lost because of walling myself in the past months.

But, I feel empty. I don't know why. I feel alienated, I think. I've become much more emotionless after this period, people are beginning to baffle me. Why? Why let feelings control you, why let them screw you over? Maybe I need to clarify something; I'm not entirely emotionless, but (negative)emotion-less. I still laugh and get excited and all, but on the other end, I'm just empty. That's what I'm feeling right now, because there isn't anything spurring my positive emotions now. I'm just stagnant, baffled, forehead creased and frowning from this lack of negativity. Lol, should be a good thing, right? Rationally I'm happy, but I can't help but wonder if it's normal.

Then again, I realize there are some scary things I'm feeling.. Impatience, jealousy, inacceptance, contempt. It's really weird, lol. I'm becoming damn eccentric.

Okay anyway, lots of things went on these three weeks!

- Prom. It was freaking boring. Thankfully, post prom was alright because we (Calise Cindy Huixian Shiqi & I) had an adventure searching for Timbre@OldSchool and ended up it was after operating hours, so we bought coffee and juice and went to Shiqi's house LOL. So, while everyone was like, probably boozing at Zouk and dancing, we were getting caffeine and sugar highs while watching Crayon Shinchan HAHAHAHAHAHA. Oh! Melvin and Ivan also joined us at Shiqi's house, so the six of us shared an obedient and non-rebellious post-prom~

- Outings with friends. Went out with my childhood friends (Meixuan, Sherina, and Xinyi!), and so coincidentally we met another of our friends, Sam, at Clarke Quay. Went midnight k-ing, then drinking at Clarke Quay, then ate Macs at like 4am in the morning LOL. Also, went out with class clique (Cal, Cindy, Shiqi) for prom shopping. And then there was prom shopping and a simple dinner with Siaoyi, Vivien, Weiling, and days later Breaking Dawn (WHICH ISN'T THAT BAD WHAT LOL.) w Viv and Weiling ^--^ Lastly (yesterday) met up with Diondra to catch up and passed the SNSD bug to her hehehe <3

- SNSD CONCERT. Most epic concert in my life (tbh I haven't been to many lmao). Queued one day earlier, went through lots of drama with my brother whatwith the disputes over an unofficial queue some people were trying to set up (two of us were just onlookers to these, silently laughing at their immaturity and lack of rationality), and oh for the first time in my life I lay down by the streets and slept like a hobo. LOL. A fresh experience man, I must say. The next morning Huixian joined us and thankfully we managed to help her cut the queue with little trouble. We died queueing, with the pain of sitting down with no space to adjust yourself for HOURS, and then later on when it rained we had to stand for almost three hours. And when we finally got in, because we were in the standing pen, we had to stand for another three hours HAHHAHHA. But totally worth it, I regret nothing.

The girls were so beautiful in real life it's kind of ..dazzling. I was dazed for most of the concert because it's surreal, the lights, the effects, the dances, the real SNSD in front of my eyes and performing, laughing, playing around. I think I keep repeating this but for the sake of putting this in my blog so I can read back in future; Yoona pointed at my foam heart and laughed, while Tiffany stared at it and then eyesmiled at me. Okay, seriously, these girls are idols with like a million fans worldwide, and I managed to make eye contact with them... It's a dream come true for every SONE (SNSD's fans). Goodness.. What I would give to experience it all over again. They're not just pretty girls. People who hate them think they're just that. That's why they think nothing of them, even dislike them; hate them. But if you look past the surface to the personality (which should be the case for every human being, by the way. Yes, they're humans too), you'll see Taeyeon's inability to open up about her feelings beyond her cheerfulness (which I feel very much for), Jessica's friendliness beyond her cold exterior, Sunny's maturity beyond her act-cuteness, Tiffany's pain behind her dazzling smiles, Hyoyeon's insecurities beyond her hilariousity, Yuri's concern for her members beyond her overwhelming stage charisma, Sooyoung's meekness beyond her straightforwardness, Yoona's awfully endearingness beyond her godlike beauty, and Seohyun's wisdom beyond her silence and reserve.

Okay, I'm sorry for that.

I seem to know them more than I know my friends, huh..? Not really, I think. I guess I know more than I show, or at least, that's what I believe.

Yeah, okay. Shall go now, it's been too long a post. Byebye!