Dirty hands to clean (clean hands to dirty)

So it's 10am now, the earliest I've ever composed a blog entry. It's been around 20 over hours without sleep, with 5+ hours of that spent drenched, and half of that spent being either being spattered by heavy rain or bone-chilled by harsh winds, or both. Not fun.

Which is why I'm beat now, but also why I've gained insights on certain things. I would sleep but I might lose the feel...

^ Ok lmao I fell asleep at that point.. It's 10pm now instead!

As I was saying.. Last night I was at East Coast Park for the Sundown 42KM route as a volunteer. While clapping non-stop (my wrists almost broke) for the runners, I started wondering what kind of people they all were. To participate in this kind of suicidal activity, you're either: i) really fit; ii) passionate; iii) trying to prove something; iv) not thinking; or v) suicidal. Of these I think the bulk who smiled or acknowledged our cheering efforts were the passionate people. And there were also skeptics who were all wth at why we continued cheering in our rain-soaked plight.. Lol. Nonetheless, I admire these people a lot. Finishers, especially. I can't say I admire you if you gave up, but if it's because of physical constraints (fainting, sprains) then ok fine. But it takes a hell lot of determination to push through all the way.. Something I lack.

Later on came a point when the race was ending and everyone's running (as in, operating) painfully on their energy reserves to make up for sleep. I personally think that's when most people show their true sides (some ugly) and today morning I got to experience that.

I think it's inherent of human nature that people never want to do the dirty jobs. That in itself is true of course, but my point is when it comes between choosing to do it yourself or pushing it to someone else. There were multiple instances of how, being tired and sleepy, people chose to push the unwanted duties to other people instead. It's damn ugly of these people, and even more so if you're in a leadership position. Leadership means leading by example. What are you if you lead by your mouth? Oh, come on.

Kinda bragging, but I know how during events I plan or things I lead in, I'll make sure to join in doing the shit jobs (aka sai kang) unless maybe I didn't view it as shit at all but someone else did.. I'm pretty sensitive about these things though so I hope not. But anyway, for people who don't, shame on you. You fail.

I don't understand how people are so.. dense! If you don't wanna do it, what makes you think someone else wants to?

Lol. All this confused rage is getting to me. On another note, accepted SMU Social Sciences! Really hoping and looking forward to learning more from Psychology.. /stares into your soul