Food for thought

Oriana Fallaci: “True power does not need arrogance, a long beard and a barking voice. True power strangles you with silk ribbons, charm, and intelligence.”

We are young, but not for long

Perhaps it wouldn't hurt to try to be a bit more honest, a bit more loving, and a bit more daring?

Haunted

Sometimes I think that the saying "Better late than never" is kinda flawed. I mean, most sayings all are if viewing from a certain perspective, no?

For me, the problem of not doing certain things as scheduled/promised is pretty serious. The guilt of these plague me the moment I miss the 'deadline' and usually paralyses me into inaction. Gradually I move on, slipping these events into a large sack which lays in the corner.

But times come when I trip over the sack, or when I accidentally peek in and discover what rotting mess there is inside. And during these times I think, should I start clearing them out?

Usually the answer is: better late than never. But, better for who exactly? I think the answer is really just myself. Whatever I'm supposed to do has lapsed and does little good to whoever was originally the recipient already. They can live without it. But for me, if I do it, I rid myself of the baggage that has been affecting me for so long and I feel much better from it.

How selfish.. Lol, I do realize that I may be an emotional masochist, which means I go hard on my own feelings. And so I find it hard to rid these overdue tasks.. Why should I make myself feel less guilty? Pretty vicious cycle tbh.

Best way is to just meet the date actually.. Oops?

Try (and succeed)

Because the only other way is to fail.

And what's so bad about failing anyway? Been too sick to do anything fun for the past three days, so I've been stuck thinking about things. Damn.. So I decided to recount some things I have ever tried in my life. You never know until you try, yknow?

#1 Cutting my own fringe

Ok so while this has turned out really badly for some people whom I know, it hasn't for me yet. I always end up with the most satisfying fringes for myself.. Um a tip would be not to be too ambitious. Don't cut an inch off at once man.

#2 Covering a song

This was real bad. HAHAHAHA oh God I feel so embarassed. I did this with a close friend who suggested it, and we spent a whole day on it. Not even going to say what's the song because it's that bad.. Well anyway, 10 dislikes and 0 likes after we decided to stop checking up on it. It was fun though.

#3 Giving a speech

Back in secondary school, as the captain I had to do the speech/announcement for my softball team and I tried really hard to do it well. But no, I just slurred like I was on drugs in front of the whole school on the podium and mumbled thank you without anyone really knowing what our achievement was. Sorry..

#4 Being cool

Doesn't suit me. Probably will never do. Yeah. Okay.

#5 Recounting this

Fail. Because I can't think of anything else )=

I love you, baby I'm not a monster

In the blink of an eye, months have already passed since the A's. I'd like to believe that this day last year, I was studying, but I hardly doubt so.

Like I once said, I pretty much scraped through the A'Levels. And now that I've managed to get into SMU... I realize how thankful I should be to God. And I am.

I don't find a need to show people my belief in Him because it concerns no other person. Church tells us that we should spread His word, and not sorry to say but I don't subscribe to that. Kinda controversial, but I think by working towards being a good example of a human is the best influence. If people respect you, they'll respect your beliefs. I'm not the best person; I'm still working towards it. I still constantly err everyday, but I reflect on them. Hopefully I'm getting closer?

Talking again about how time has flew, I'm trying to use my time to enjoy as much as possible lol. When can I even do this again.. The thought of never being able to be young and be free again scares me :/ Well, #YOLO! Not gonna regret this because by Zhiqing's rules: never regret choices you know were the best at that point.