Inverse

I'm not sure if pushing myself like that is good. I've been on a crazy productive streak, and all of a sudden yesterday night I felt so drained to the extent that I just shut down until this morning. I thank God for helping me pull through the day today -- through seven hours of lessons of which I was utterly dreading because I didn't prepare for them at all. 

I just ended class, and I stayed in the room to do some research for my meeting later, and as the laptop screen dimmed I got a shock by just how bad my eyebags were. The me of the past never had eyebags -- I would never forgo sleep to that extent. But it has been becoming a more and more frequent occurrence these days.....these, months? My time has been flying by because I'm really utilizing them I must say. Practically, realistically, it's a great thing. But I'm drawing this energy from somewhere invisible and it's taking a toll on me.

I believe that by faith, I would draw my energy from Christ. But am I lacking in that faith currently? Why am I so disturbed by the workaholic I've become? This wonder and doubt seems so inane, but it's on my mind so much I'm haunted by it. I hope it goes away as I get used to it...