Sitting outside Starbucks, waiting patiently for something -- anything, to happen. The wind starts to get stronger, and my fingers are getting numb and hard to control. The lights are dim, my earphones are plugged in and a sad ballad is slowly playing; perfect atmosphere to be depressed. I decide to shift to a happier location.
I pack up, turn, and this man is blocking the way with his legs propped up on another chair while he occupies one. He isn't even drinking anything. I politely request for him to make way, and after several futile attempts his friend motions to him. He looks at me with that kind of look, then he moves and I pass. He mutters under his breath, complaining.
I slap him.
Nah, in my mind.
(LOL super irritated, so I'm expressing it CIVILISED-LY in a fanfic kind of writing style, instead of COMPLAINING. He's a freeloader somemore. SO PISSED!!!! But I'm sitting at a warm corner inside Starbucks now! Yay I feel better after complaining. YOU, GO TO HELLLLL!)
Okay bye ;) Will be back on the 31sttttttt!
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Sunday, December 26, 2010
End of X'mas!
Wah, so fast it ended already.. Well, I guess it's time to start working hard again. I hate to say this, but I have to face it.
Watched a movie today, Tron Legacy! Exciting, definitely worth a watch. (: BUT IF you're the kind who can't catch up with chim storylines and also technical vocabulary, then haha maybe you should consider again. Anyway, I learnt quite some stuff. Well, many ambitious people have searched for the possible utopia by trying to achieve perfection. But humans are imperfect, and we are flesh and blood cause we have flaws. So if you want a perfect world, you'd have to annihilate, or modify humans. But the option of modification would just lead to us becoming robots, void of emotions. So how does that make it utopia, if you don't have happiness? Yeah of course you could say, everyone could be 'always happy'. But what is happiness when you have it all the time, and what is happiness when you can't compare it to another opposite? I don't regard happiness as a different feeling from sadness. I think, it's just different degrees of the same thing. So you can't have one without the other, cause there needs to be a measure! BUT OKAY enough of this philosophical talk LOL, I'm like writing GP here..
Okay then when I was home, I watched the last episode of this korean period drama me and my bro have been watching since mid-year! The Slave Hunters, aka Chuno. Omgah the ending is super awesome.. As in. It was part tragic, part happy. I cried so freaking hard at the tragic part ._. But if the tragic part wasn't there, like if it was entirely happy, I wouldn't feel as satisfied at the ending as now. So conclusion: I like tragedy! Okay lah, not all the time. But this ending, one guy sacrificed for the couple (of which the girl was his ex-gf but they lost contact for manyyy years), then the couple managed to escape to a faraway place for good. While this guy was dying, the girl who liked him caught up with him, and she confessed just before he died (ok I cried like mad here). Then the bad person who was the guy who tried to kill all of them, was touched by how hard the first guy fought to protect the couple (even though he was supposed to hate them), and so he gave up on all the evil plans he conjured. That was also cause he was actually good by nature (at the start he was an awesome good guy) but he was just forced to become like that cause too many evil people backstabbed him. So he turned over a new leaf and returned to his family, and gave up on all the fame and glory. Omt omt nice show!
Haha okay enough of spazzing. Go listen to 她說 by JJ Lin! Yay new fav chinese song ;)
Happy new year in advance!!
Watched a movie today, Tron Legacy! Exciting, definitely worth a watch. (: BUT IF you're the kind who can't catch up with chim storylines and also technical vocabulary, then haha maybe you should consider again. Anyway, I learnt quite some stuff. Well, many ambitious people have searched for the possible utopia by trying to achieve perfection. But humans are imperfect, and we are flesh and blood cause we have flaws. So if you want a perfect world, you'd have to annihilate, or modify humans. But the option of modification would just lead to us becoming robots, void of emotions. So how does that make it utopia, if you don't have happiness? Yeah of course you could say, everyone could be 'always happy'. But what is happiness when you have it all the time, and what is happiness when you can't compare it to another opposite? I don't regard happiness as a different feeling from sadness. I think, it's just different degrees of the same thing. So you can't have one without the other, cause there needs to be a measure! BUT OKAY enough of this philosophical talk LOL, I'm like writing GP here..
Okay then when I was home, I watched the last episode of this korean period drama me and my bro have been watching since mid-year! The Slave Hunters, aka Chuno. Omgah the ending is super awesome.. As in. It was part tragic, part happy. I cried so freaking hard at the tragic part ._. But if the tragic part wasn't there, like if it was entirely happy, I wouldn't feel as satisfied at the ending as now. So conclusion: I like tragedy! Okay lah, not all the time. But this ending, one guy sacrificed for the couple (of which the girl was his ex-gf but they lost contact for manyyy years), then the couple managed to escape to a faraway place for good. While this guy was dying, the girl who liked him caught up with him, and she confessed just before he died (ok I cried like mad here). Then the bad person who was the guy who tried to kill all of them, was touched by how hard the first guy fought to protect the couple (even though he was supposed to hate them), and so he gave up on all the evil plans he conjured. That was also cause he was actually good by nature (at the start he was an awesome good guy) but he was just forced to become like that cause too many evil people backstabbed him. So he turned over a new leaf and returned to his family, and gave up on all the fame and glory. Omt omt nice show!
Haha okay enough of spazzing. Go listen to 她說 by JJ Lin! Yay new fav chinese song ;)
Happy new year in advance!!
Saturday, December 25, 2010
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Hello MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone! (: Haha today is a pretty happy day for me. And yesterday too! Although it was spent at home, but I had a good time with my family during dinner. And then just using my comp and texting my friends was good too, since I was already in such a good mood ^^
Hmm, I honestly cannot remember how I spent Xmas last year, but that's okay. This year it's with a different and new set of friends, and I guess I've had many awesome memories with everyone. Sweet and bitter ones are included, and they're all part of the experience! Laughter, heartbreak, dejection, hope. Well, that's life -- we can't have good ones without bad ones.
I hope the upcoming year'll be as exciting, although we'll be mugging hard this time, but I pray the friendships can still stay stable and intact. Everyone, I love you! So please do bear with me from now on as I put my heart into A' levels, I really need to work hard for this. And also since I'm hooked onto Kpop.. *less than divide three*
Have an awesome green christmas (cause we can't have a white one) and be happy no matter what kay!
♥, Zhiqing!
Hmm, I honestly cannot remember how I spent Xmas last year, but that's okay. This year it's with a different and new set of friends, and I guess I've had many awesome memories with everyone. Sweet and bitter ones are included, and they're all part of the experience! Laughter, heartbreak, dejection, hope. Well, that's life -- we can't have good ones without bad ones.
I hope the upcoming year'll be as exciting, although we'll be mugging hard this time, but I pray the friendships can still stay stable and intact. Everyone, I love you! So please do bear with me from now on as I put my heart into A' levels, I really need to work hard for this. And also since I'm hooked onto Kpop.. *less than divide three*
Have an awesome green christmas (cause we can't have a white one) and be happy no matter what kay!
♥, Zhiqing!
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Joke of the day
"4 times 9 equals?"
"18!!!"
*everyone bursts out in laughter*
"Ehhhh I only said that to make it funny!"
"Yeah right!"
"Really! I know, it's 24!!"
"18!!!"
*everyone bursts out in laughter*
"Ehhhh I only said that to make it funny!"
"Yeah right!"
"Really! I know, it's 24!!"
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Happy emo
Yello! Hah today I watched two episodes of Invincible Youth! Aka two hours. But I took 6 hours to watch that 2 episodes! Not that I'm complaining. I finally managed to find a place to watch it although it takes eons to load~ While waiting I could do so much stuff, yay I like.
Anyway, that wasn't the point. The point was that, because this variety show's about 7 girl group idols having to lead a countryside lifestyle (aka they have to be self sustainable), it seems to really help them learn a lot about being down to earth and thus mature, and also become closer with one another. I think the show gives a heartwarming feel! Coupled with their humour, it really becomes fun to watch. (: Ah how I wish I could join one programme like that too! I wanna have an experience like that.
Okay, that was the happy part of my post. The emo part (which is not very emo also):
Hmm k recently I just got hooked on I Did Wrong by 2AM. Considerably old song, but nice. The very start, when they begin singing (and then got the weird electric echoey effect) that part, it just makes me get goosebumps. Like for a few seconds, cause there'll be this weird electric echoey effect to the song, it'll make me feel this heartbreak-like feeling inside of me :O Idk how to explain but you get it lah ah! Haha!
Alright, heard this nice and EVEN older song on IY, english song! :D Fits the christmas mood somemore. ^^
All About You - McFly
It's all about you
(It's about you)
It's all about you baby
(It's all about)
It's all about you
(It's about you)
It's all about you
Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew
So I told you with a smile, "It's all about you"
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me too
Said, "You make my life worth while"
"It's all about you"
And I would answer all your wishes if you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
It's all about you
Yeah
And I would answer all your wishes if you asked me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Yes
You make my life worth while
So I told you with a smile, "It's all about you"
It's all about you
(It's about you)
It's all about you baby
(It's all about)
Merry Christmas in advance! ^3^ kiss kiss emoticon KEKE
Anyway, that wasn't the point. The point was that, because this variety show's about 7 girl group idols having to lead a countryside lifestyle (aka they have to be self sustainable), it seems to really help them learn a lot about being down to earth and thus mature, and also become closer with one another. I think the show gives a heartwarming feel! Coupled with their humour, it really becomes fun to watch. (: Ah how I wish I could join one programme like that too! I wanna have an experience like that.
Okay, that was the happy part of my post. The emo part (which is not very emo also):
Hmm k recently I just got hooked on I Did Wrong by 2AM. Considerably old song, but nice. The very start, when they begin singing (and then got the weird electric echoey effect) that part, it just makes me get goosebumps. Like for a few seconds, cause there'll be this weird electric echoey effect to the song, it'll make me feel this heartbreak-like feeling inside of me :O Idk how to explain but you get it lah ah! Haha!
Alright, heard this nice and EVEN older song on IY, english song! :D Fits the christmas mood somemore. ^^
All About You - McFly
It's all about you
(It's about you)
It's all about you baby
(It's all about)
It's all about you
(It's about you)
It's all about you
Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew
So I told you with a smile, "It's all about you"
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me too
Said, "You make my life worth while"
"It's all about you"
And I would answer all your wishes if you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
It's all about you
Yeah
And I would answer all your wishes if you asked me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Yes
You make my life worth while
So I told you with a smile, "It's all about you"
It's all about you
(It's about you)
It's all about you baby
(It's all about)
Merry Christmas in advance! ^3^ kiss kiss emoticon KEKE
Friday, December 17, 2010
A merger of both
Amazingly, I'm not K-crazying right now. Haha yeah, this is rare.
Right now, I feel so tired. But somehow, I know very well that if I go sleep now, I'll just end up tossing and turning and unable to sleep.
The K-craze has managed to distract me for a while from all that I've been trying to avoid, but in this cold and emo weather, I guess I can't help but think about everything again. It's like it's trying to remind me not to lose myself in my escapade since it's only for momentary relief from everything, and that I still need to face all these.
All these what? All these problems. All the things going around me right now. Sometimes I act like I don't know, sometimes I act like I don't care. Sometimes it seems to not bother me. I deceive myself too much, I think I'm so good at hiding my feelings I myself get lost and absorbed in my self-comforting lies.
Everyone keeps feelings to themselves.
I'm no exception.. Just that maybe, I keep my feelings FROM myself too. I'm sick of having to deny how happy/tired/sad/jealous/stressed about certain things I am.
I'm so well versed in the art of self-deception.
Right now, I feel so tired. But somehow, I know very well that if I go sleep now, I'll just end up tossing and turning and unable to sleep.
The K-craze has managed to distract me for a while from all that I've been trying to avoid, but in this cold and emo weather, I guess I can't help but think about everything again. It's like it's trying to remind me not to lose myself in my escapade since it's only for momentary relief from everything, and that I still need to face all these.
All these what? All these problems. All the things going around me right now. Sometimes I act like I don't know, sometimes I act like I don't care. Sometimes it seems to not bother me. I deceive myself too much, I think I'm so good at hiding my feelings I myself get lost and absorbed in my self-comforting lies.
Everyone keeps feelings to themselves.
I'm no exception.. Just that maybe, I keep my feelings FROM myself too. I'm sick of having to deny how happy/tired/sad/jealous/stressed about certain things I am.
I'm so well versed in the art of self-deception.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
!
Woah I used to love this song like MAD when I was younger! Today is the first time I've heard it and know the title.
Bizarre Love Triangle - Frente
Every time I think of you
I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine
But it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
But there's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of the fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
well every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You say the words that I can't say
I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You say the words that I can't say
Bizarre Love Triangle - Frente
Every time I think of you
I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine
But it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
But there's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of the fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
well every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You say the words that I can't say
I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You say the words that I can't say
Friday, December 10, 2010
Obsessed.
Okay I am mad now. All I think about EVERY day is about going home to watch videos and whatever, on my korean stuff. Am I mad? Yes.
We Got Married, Brown Eyed Girls. They are NEVER not on my mind. Read this phrase carefully: NOT on my mind.
Anyway, back to reality.. I think I really need to get them off my mind, or my A'levels are a goner. The reason why I resisted the Kwave so much back in secondary school was because I knew I would NEVER study (and get past O's) if I got obsessed. Then now, oh great, I THOUGHT I wouldn't get obsessed so I tried, and turned out I became worse than obsessed -- I'm addicted. I don't even have the patience to hang around facebook anymore. And I don't wanna use MSN (esp. since it kena-ed some virus). And blogging... Wah I'm only blogging now cause today I was out the whole day, so I got some time to think through things a little. This is bad..
But, what I thought of? Ah, can I put all in point form?
- I realized I'm quite a jealous person. I didn't even realize it myself, but after putting bits and pieces of my thoughts and behaviour from past to present together, I realized that. You know why they always say "When someone dislikes you, it's cause they're jealous of you."? Haha I kind of find some truth in that.. Yep.
- I seek approval a lot. I've always wanted to be someone who's independent and has her own individual thinking, but.. I seek the views and opinions of other people too much. Not as in I literally ask them, but I yearn for their opinions to approve of me. So yeah, I always end up doing stuff which people want me to do, not what I myself want to do. Which sucks.. I wanna change this, but I can't imagine doing something which people don't think I should do. The thought of it tortures me. I'm like the kid in dramas who always seeks the attention and approval of all the adults. Lol that's me.
- I am a slacker, and I am trying to change.
- I am too nice at inappropriate moments.
Okay, this post is getting draggy. My mind is already wandering off........ ):
Bye!
We Got Married, Brown Eyed Girls. They are NEVER not on my mind. Read this phrase carefully: NOT on my mind.
Anyway, back to reality.. I think I really need to get them off my mind, or my A'levels are a goner. The reason why I resisted the Kwave so much back in secondary school was because I knew I would NEVER study (and get past O's) if I got obsessed. Then now, oh great, I THOUGHT I wouldn't get obsessed so I tried, and turned out I became worse than obsessed -- I'm addicted. I don't even have the patience to hang around facebook anymore. And I don't wanna use MSN (esp. since it kena-ed some virus). And blogging... Wah I'm only blogging now cause today I was out the whole day, so I got some time to think through things a little. This is bad..
But, what I thought of? Ah, can I put all in point form?
- I realized I'm quite a jealous person. I didn't even realize it myself, but after putting bits and pieces of my thoughts and behaviour from past to present together, I realized that. You know why they always say "When someone dislikes you, it's cause they're jealous of you."? Haha I kind of find some truth in that.. Yep.
- I seek approval a lot. I've always wanted to be someone who's independent and has her own individual thinking, but.. I seek the views and opinions of other people too much. Not as in I literally ask them, but I yearn for their opinions to approve of me. So yeah, I always end up doing stuff which people want me to do, not what I myself want to do. Which sucks.. I wanna change this, but I can't imagine doing something which people don't think I should do. The thought of it tortures me. I'm like the kid in dramas who always seeks the attention and approval of all the adults. Lol that's me.
- I am a slacker, and I am trying to change.
- I am too nice at inappropriate moments.
Okay, this post is getting draggy. My mind is already wandering off........ ):
Bye!
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Alternate universe
Saw this pickup line which I found super funny. Okay, I don't know why I find it funny when it's actually really sweet, but ah neverminddd.
"Hey, did it hurt?":p Being weird.
"Huh? Did what hurt?"
"You falling from heaven. Cause if you're not an angel, then I don't know what you are."
Monday, December 6, 2010
Sunday
"I quietly go back to sleep, but in the inside I'm screaming" (Drunk On Sleep)
Had a friendly against RV High today! Man, it was tiring like hell. Seriously, it was the first time I actually couldn't catch my breath in time before I had to continue running for my life. Life = ball. Hais, stamina super cui! I was so afraid that we wouldn't be able to win with this kind of physique.
Thankfully..... WE WON! :D 5-3! But I heard that they were mostly new Sec 4s, so I felt quite bad. I really hope we improve enough for A'div..
Mm, then ate Pizza Hut with the girls, and went to play LAN! Tiring siol, my head is spinning. I guess playing against others bonds us more. The reason why we're so clique-ish is cause we're always playing against each other during training! Ah, sucks. Wish we can have more friendlies!
Shag to the max. Bai!
Had a friendly against RV High today! Man, it was tiring like hell. Seriously, it was the first time I actually couldn't catch my breath in time before I had to continue running for my life. Life = ball. Hais, stamina super cui! I was so afraid that we wouldn't be able to win with this kind of physique.
Thankfully..... WE WON! :D 5-3! But I heard that they were mostly new Sec 4s, so I felt quite bad. I really hope we improve enough for A'div..
Mm, then ate Pizza Hut with the girls, and went to play LAN! Tiring siol, my head is spinning. I guess playing against others bonds us more. The reason why we're so clique-ish is cause we're always playing against each other during training! Ah, sucks. Wish we can have more friendlies!
Shag to the max. Bai!
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Drunk on Sleep
It's been such a long time since I've heard a song that makes me cry.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vI65q_I7TTE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vI65q_I7TTE
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Fists clenched.
I really want to be in a world of my own sometimes. I'm much too.. torn.. in the world out there. Out here.
Saw a quote.
Saw a quote.
Some say having something is better than having nothing at all. But the truth is, having something halfway is harder than having nothing at all. – Author unknown
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Lost for words
Haha I've been really reluctant to blog lately. Oh well. Fell sick after going swimming on Sunday! ): Anyway, heard a song I haven't heard in a longggg time today, nostalgic much.
Nothing I can do anymore anyway.
I've become increasingly nonchalant with things too. Is this part of growing up? On Monday I went for my secondary school softball chalet, and I felt old there. The games didn't excite me as much as before, all I wanted to do was sleep (I'm serious) and I didn't care about attention anymore. Yup, I guesssss it's all part of growing up. But then again.. I feel like my nonchalance is making me indifferent about peoples' emotions. I no longer care as much.
Today, for the first time, I actually shook my mom's hand off when she tried to hook my arm. Even I was shocked by myself. I felt so guilty about it, but I didn't do anything. My mom then talked about something else like she didn't think much about it, and I hope she didn't either.. What is becoming of me? Selfish, self absorbed, self centred. The me of last year would never have been like that. What has become of me? ):
不知不觉 你已经离开我Yup, all of a sudden, it's been one year! So many things have changed in this short lapse of time. Short, because there's been so much to do, and so much I've missed. There are so many things I've let go of, some which should have been long ago, and some which I should have held on tightly.
不知不觉 我跟了这节奏
后知后觉 又过了一个秋
后知后觉 我该好好生活
Nothing I can do anymore anyway.
I've become increasingly nonchalant with things too. Is this part of growing up? On Monday I went for my secondary school softball chalet, and I felt old there. The games didn't excite me as much as before, all I wanted to do was sleep (I'm serious) and I didn't care about attention anymore. Yup, I guesssss it's all part of growing up. But then again.. I feel like my nonchalance is making me indifferent about peoples' emotions. I no longer care as much.
Today, for the first time, I actually shook my mom's hand off when she tried to hook my arm. Even I was shocked by myself. I felt so guilty about it, but I didn't do anything. My mom then talked about something else like she didn't think much about it, and I hope she didn't either.. What is becoming of me? Selfish, self absorbed, self centred. The me of last year would never have been like that. What has become of me? ):
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