Amazingly, I'm not K-crazying right now. Haha yeah, this is rare.
Right now, I feel so tired. But somehow, I know very well that if I go sleep now, I'll just end up tossing and turning and unable to sleep.
The K-craze has managed to distract me for a while from all that I've been trying to avoid, but in this cold and emo weather, I guess I can't help but think about everything again. It's like it's trying to remind me not to lose myself in my escapade since it's only for momentary relief from everything, and that I still need to face all these.
All these what? All these problems. All the things going around me right now. Sometimes I act like I don't know, sometimes I act like I don't care. Sometimes it seems to not bother me. I deceive myself too much, I think I'm so good at hiding my feelings I myself get lost and absorbed in my self-comforting lies.
Everyone keeps feelings to themselves.
I'm no exception.. Just that maybe, I keep my feelings FROM myself too. I'm sick of having to deny how happy/tired/sad/jealous/stressed about certain things I am.
I'm so well versed in the art of self-deception.
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