All I can do is....

You know, trying doesn't amount to succeeding.

I reached school half an hour early today just to print my ELL homework, but I forgot I didn't have my ezlink with me.
So after GP, I rannnn to the comp lab to print it. I seriously rushed. But, guess what. I tried logging in to the computer. Failed. Okay, so I moved to a second one. I logged in. Succeeded. Opened my workspace folder, opened my ELL homework files. "Windows cannot find an appropriate program to open the file." What? So I moved to a third one, and finally, FINALLY it succeeded. By then more than 5 mins had passed, and I was sure I was late. So I ran down to the venue, and I stepped in and apologized.

Mrs Lee wasn't happy, and she questioned me. I had no choice but to say that Ms Gopal released us late, which she did (a little only though). She said she would go verify it with her. I totally felt like I crumbled on the inside. I am so screwed up. So so so screwed up. If she really does ask Ms Gopal, I'm dead.

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I really hate JC2. Right now, I honestly admit I want to retain. Yes, I know that one year later, I'll still have to face JC2. But my JC1 was like, wasted. I didn't pass anything. I don't want to flunk my A's the same way.
Oh right, I can "work harder now". But time waits for no man and I only have 24 hours in a day. How can I make up for a whole year of foundation? I'm already living two days in one; I wake up, go to school, come home, nap, wake up, work till late midnight, catch a few hours of sleep, and then wake up again. But how long can this last? It's only been two days and I'm already in a daze when I'm in school. Not that I'm tired, the sleep is surprisingly enough; but that I feel screwed. Who feels normal when their body clock's messed up like that? And tomorrow's there's floorball training. During the time when I've been sleeping the past two days. Oh great.

I told myself: this year, there's no place for friends, no place for fun, no place for leisure anymore. I'm just gonna be no life. But won't I break down?

I don't have so much energy to spare. I'm not the multitasking type either. There's no place for one when there's the other. It's 'having a life' VS. 'doing well in Alevels'. I mean, you might be thinking that there's definitely a balance between the two, somewhere right? But no, not for me. Cause I'm already lagging doubly behind as everyone else, and so this year I have to put in double the effort. Which means, sacrificing allll my play for work.

Unless I retain. I still have time to consider, you know?
Hah, OGL turned OGM. That'd be a joke, but I don't mind being a joke if it's good for me.