Sunday, April 17, 2011

Back and forth

Okay hiii, been a while since I've updated huh? Haha somehow, I only update when my mood is a less than or equal to neutral.. So yeah. Idk why I felt, should I say lonely (?), all of a sudden just now. Maybe it's the weather, maybe it was the atmosphere of seeing the sun set and sky darken while feeling insignificant.

Really, is the future all we're supposed to work for in life? To me, it just seems like a never ending chase, always having to run for something better, something bigger. It really has become a flout of society's rules to be content. I don't care about victory, about achievements, about all that, really. The times I care, they're mere sparks which shine so bright for a while and extinguish mere instants later. Call me a good-for-nothing, but is being content a sin? Screw rules, screw norms, screw expectations, they have screwed me up all my life.

On the other hand.., recently I realized that during down times, listening to sad songs gives me some solace and maybe comfort that someone else understands my pain. Meanwhile, during happy times, it doesn't actually dampen my mood, but it helps me reflect and not get caught up in my joy and ecstasy instead. Haha, maybe it helps in making me more rational and cool-headed? Hopefully.

Hectic week next week. One week to Adivs.

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