Sometimes I wish, that I could just disappear without a trace for a while, and then come back as someone I wanted to be. Everyone hates unexplained changes, everyone hates to be left ignorant and unsure, and confused. That restricts us, or maybe only me, from changing ourselves, and if only I had an excuse to fall back on.. I wanna change everything about me. My stupidity, my accomodative nature, my lack of discipline. Selfishly I just wanna be straightforward, I wish I could be someone who would really just say what I want when I want it, and if I get rejected of it, then so be it. I'd be cool with it.
Isn't it easier when we just say what we want, instead of having to guess one another's thoughts and feelings all day long? Or, for example, to just say I love you when you do feel it, instead of keeping it in and causing so much distress for yourself. I've seen too much of that around.. And isn't it easy if you just say, "I feel horrible, I feel sad, I feel like shit" when you do? To strip ourselves bare and present the most raw parts of us to the world -- instead of the facades, the masks, the pretenses we put up everyday.
Screw social norms, I seriously hate them.
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