Drink driving

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

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It's April's Fool Day today, and I once told somebody that I was going to smile through the pain, till the pain subsides and fades, and my smile is from the heart again. With that in mind, I made use of this day, and I laughed and played, joked and fooled around, just like the old times back in my childhood. But well, I guess all good things come to an end though, I still have to face reality eventually.

And the smiles cease when I unmask myself to discover yet again how crippled and crushed I am inside. When can I finally, again, experience what a heartfelt smile feels like on my face?