Ah it's been a long time since the last update! Hmm been so caught up with floorball and work after all. Oh well, floorball's coming to a regrettable end, and I have really mixed feelings about it. On one hand, I'll finally be able to have time to do my work and catch up with all that I've missed; and prove to certain teachers I can do it. On the other though, it marks the finishing line for this one passion (it's not even a sport anymore) I've pumped so much time and effort and emotion into. Twice to thrice of a few hours each week, perspiration shed and energy burnt to the extent of shaggedness, and happiness, excitement, anger, disappointment, dejection. I'm really upset over the fact that we're not in the next round, but like I told myself and I told a certain few, there's nothing more we can do about it already. The least we could, is play our best for the last match despite it being practically insignificant. But on the level other than practical, I know it's gonna the last time I'm going to fight so hard on that court. After that, nothing much counts anymore. I really don't want to lose. I don't want to even win by a margin. I wanna fight, I wanna score, I wanna win.
I really wanna. The euphoria of a match well-played and won; I've never ever experienced that. Serious. Like, wth, am I cursed? This is my last chance, I either take it or blow it.
I'm gonna miss the people after it all. Things will change, life's like that. So while we're still at it, I hope we make the last lap the most memorably good one for all of us.. Manz life sucks.
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